这几天

Posted by PiNgYeW ^^

第一次从朋友口中听见，
原来‘我不要’，‘我不想’，‘不愿意’等可以用很多其他巨资来代替，
比如‘XXX不久没那么麻烦了’，‘你不觉得XXX比较好吗’，‘什么时候变成我的东西’
有意无意，但还是发生了；讯息还是传达了

我也不想，但我没有选择了
只好自己来了，就这样，我东奔西走，
连cendi的guard 也认得我的样子和车子，
三天里，我到了cendi 三次，大概跑了400km 吧（包括去了一趟nilai & LCCT)
虽然可以避免，但我却得不到的合作，
瞬间还真的想不到谁可以帮，
原来自己在大学混了四年，能帮的朋友还真的没几个...
真的失败
不经意的，我啃下来的
虽然比起一些有心人，我做得不多；
但至少，我真的觉得不容易

爸妈说，
“不要紧，赶回去看看”
“不了，我call去，他们开始散band了”

“既然你们都要完了，算了吧，我不来了”
“好的”

“我们等你来，到夜了你还是没来，我们就开始收拾”
有些话，在我的角度听下去，真得很刺耳
我被遗忘了？

这几天，突发事件太多；
自己吞下来的不说，
突然发现，
原来那400多公里白跑了
toll funds 白给了
自己做多了

我失望，不是因为我期望，是我预料不到
我失落，不是因为难过，是我把你们当成朋友

很多小事中可以看出很多事，
我看得出，听得到，也领教了
事情过去了；
我不怪人，不想这里的东西成为你的话题
是我自己鸡婆，没有同样的下次，
下次，我带个人，但张嘴巴去就好

2 comments:

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Firstly, I apologize if there's anything that made you unhappy.

I must say that, I really got informed that, two friends were going back soon, that why we cut the cake first.

And the moment I received your call, we were already preparing to cut the second cake, and I didn't expect we'll have something on-going after the second cake, since I planned to end early as our friend is having test the next day. That time, you said that you're coming back from Klang, so I estimate around 30 minutes, which by the time you came, we will be finished cutting the second cake. So, when you said you're not coming, I said ok.

I were kinda busy the whole night frankly so when we served the second cake, I didn't pass the message for everyone. This is again my mistake, sorry.

Sincerely apologize.

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